Falling Off. . .Crawling Back On

I set up regular tasks for myself in an attempt to keep me focused because I am easily distracted and I admire focus in others. It will be a task that seems reasonable at the time, a challenge but not impossible, but once I fall off the routine I'm done for, usually. At the start there is a lot of good feelings, look at me, I'm focused! I've got a routine! Then I miss a beat, and then another, and my pats on the back switch to smacks in the back of the head. See, you lack conviction. Might as well give up. Another failed attempt at accomplishing something.

Case in point. . .almost. . .this blog. I scheduled 2 blogs per weeks for a year. Simple enough, but by the end of March I couldn't keep it going. So I've been contemplating letting it go, but I've enjoyed the freedom of this kind of writing and don't want to call the patient yet.

Maybe it's Spring.
Maybe it's my conditioning as a teacher, I work in semester blocks.
Maybe I am easily distracted and can't write about my female heroes for the whole year.
Maybe the idea was too contrived in the first place.

I'll keep writing while I figure it out. For now, here's the first poppies in my garden.